Thursday, April 2, 2009

Rubble of Insecurity

Funny, how when life seems downtrodden we reach to something more intangible, even electronic like writing a blog. No one wants to collect their thoughts, organize their dreams in tight little boxes, but you have too. by doing so makes them leave the delicate stages of hope into something real, concrete.  

You achieve anything you want by becoming one with your element. I am fire, I am water, I am the wind and I am the earth. I can burn someone in a ring of flame or drown a memory, or escape on invisible currents of fear or bury someone in the rubble of my insecurity. But I am not dong that anymore. I am tying everything up neatly in bows and ribbons. Making life again, beautiful, elegant and simple. Life should not be difficult. 

I am still walking on a tight rope but I can't fall anymore. Like I said, I can fly. There are no demons in my cupboard, there  are no monsters under my bed, maybe a few of them have been tangled in my sheets. But nothing is out to get me or devour me unless I allow it. And if you know you hold the reigns, you direct the currents, really there is no stopping you on your pursuit to some special.

Trust me becoming one with yourself may seem more difficult than being coupled but it isn't. There is still a sense of surrender, allowing  your heart to open, your soul to unfold and your mind to unfurl all its miracle to the world. I got accepted into school, I paid my credit card off and next is moving.  Moving to San Francisco perhaps, or maybe I am moving to another level of consciousness or humanity. 

I used to say I did not care what anything thought of me and I don't. Now its time that I care about what I think of myself. I am the elements, earth, air, fire and water, complete, and exquisite, then again I always was, including uninformed.

Song Choice: Britney Spears-Circus (Tom Neville's Ringleader Remix).